worthless
adjective
1. without worth; of no use, importance, or value; good-for-nothing.

A couple of days ago, I was told (by my significant other, no less) that I'm worthless. To quote him verbatim he said, "You're completely worthless, you fucking cunt." Now, I don't know about you but there is only one way to interpret that. There is no way that a person could misinterpret what the speaker was saying. It is the most negative thing anyone has said to me in eons. Hell, probaly the most horrible thing anyone has ever said to me in my life. The fact that the person who said it doesn't think there is anything wrong with what he said to me is something I find absolutely mind-boggling. This came from the same person that prides himself on having never told any of his exes that they were fat or ugly or basically anything that would hurt them to the point of scarring their psyches. Well maybe I"m just a big baby or perhaps I didn't get the memo that says talking to the person you love like that is acceptable. For the record, I do not think it is acceptable to speak to anyone like that - period. It is heartbreaking. This has wounded me all the way down to my core. It almost feels like I will never recover from being told that. I feel like I may never be the same again after having been told I am worth nothing. This hurts me with the same sharp pain in my heart that I felt when Erik told me he hated me & that baby in my stomach. It is a pain that words cannot accurately describe. How does a person say that then expect the other to act as if everything is okay? Because it's not okay. Neither am I. How is that going to make me want to do anything except lay in bed & cry? How is that supposed to make me want to stay in the same room with him? Because all I want to do after hearing that is roll into a fetal position & cry. It is beyond depressing.

The worst part is I can't UN-hear it.