How sweet is this?I

I don't have much time today to blog but I just had to post this pic and let everyone know how awesome my boyfriend is...HE TOTALLY ROCKS! When I got off BART & into his truck last night, the beautiful roses you see above were waiting for me. They're so freakin' pretty - pink & yellow. Never seen roses that color before. He is so sweet to me I almost can't stand it!

I've been disappointed so much in the past few years that I had almost forgot what it felt like to actually be in love. I was beginning to think there is no such thing as Prince Charming and that fairy tales were just...well a figament of my imagination. You know, just plain BULLSHIT. Of course I wanted so much to believe in love and all but I was beginning to get sour.

Thank God I held onto that little glimmer of hope. He may not have galloped up on a white horse (or a surfboard) but he's here. And he's helped restore my faith in human nature.

Thank you so much, Albie! I love you!!

Peace out 2011...Bring it 2012!!!

Well I have some good news and some bad news. The good news is that we survived New Year's Eve & we both looked HOT!!! But the bad news is we didn't take any photographs. At least I didn't. Of course there are a couple pics that other people took of him and posted. I, on the other hand, was not photographed. Haters. I'm not surprised.

We managed to get home by midnight. In fact, someone (who shall be nameless) was puking on the way home. But I had him tucked in with barf bowl by 11:59pm. He was snoring by the stoke of midnight. I exchanged "Happy New Years!" with his two boys before crawling into bed around 12:05am.

No pics of me in my the outfit that for once wasn't slutty but actually understated and somewhat elegant. Basic black skinny slacks & black sleeveless cowl necked top. I didn't have a wonderbra on so my boobs weren't in 3D. We both had matching alien pendants. Mine on a silver choker. His was pinned to his green/black striped tie. My sexy lingerie - new bra, panties, garter belt w/thigh highs - would have to wait for another time. Believe it or not, I am okay with that.

I didn't think I had really drank all that much on NYE but at around 4:30am when Al woke up to pee and throw up again, I woke up too. Only this time, I had an excruciating headache behind my right eye. Couldn't fall back to sleep for nothing. I still kind of have a headache. But I guess all in all my New Years went off without a hitch. I had the best date ever...I met a lot of his friends...I even got to see him sing two songs. The highlight of that was when he came over to me and yelled "This is Norma...she's my girl!" or something just as embarrassing. I actually blushed...imagine that. :)

Anyways my sweetheart is in Clear Lake visiting his grandma so today I'm gonna chill with Dizz-nizzle for a little bit. I've got to work tomorrow til Wednesday morning. I'm probably start working nights soon. More money. Weekends free with my kids & my honey.

I don't know about you but 2012 is looking pretty good so far!!!

New Year 2012

For the first time in almost 20 years, I will be going out on New Year's Eve. Yes, you read it correctly. I am going out on New Year's Eve with a date and everything. It might seem like no big deal to most people but since I have been without a significant other for the past 6 years (Mr. Big & Steve Rengel don't really count as significant others) it is a very big deal to me.

I never thought I was someone that really gave 2 shits about having someone to kiss when the ball drops at midnight but then again I also thought that I'd be with Erik for the rest of my life. And we all know that forever came a bit too soon as far as he & I were concerned. Yet the thought of having someone as amazing as my new honey...well let's just say that I didn't think he really existed - even though I hoped & prayed for a guy like him to come along and prove me wrong.

On the eve of my birthday last week, I felt like things were too good to be true. We had a little incident that almost made me give up hope. Sorta like when things are going so well that it's only a matter of time before something is bound to come along and fuck it all up. It had me all freaked out and depressed through the whole weekend. It made my birthday suck and my Christmas suck. And I'd thought it was going to make the New Year suck too.

But while I was at work on Christmas night - at the Loosli family Christmas dinner - I started to see a light at the end of the tunnel. It started when Julie told me I wouldn't be working on New Year's Eve. The lights are getting brighter and brighter for me and I can't wait til tomorrow night!

In case I don't get around to posting anything before tomorrow night, I just wanted to say I hope everyone has a safe and very Happy New Year!!!

Oh and thanks in advance, honey. I know I'm going to have the best time...because every day we spend together has been the best day ever and they just keep getting better. I love you!!!

Happy Almost Birthday to me...

I don't know why I thought this year would be different or that for once I had found someone to prove all the others wrong. Yet here I sit on the eve of what should be a happy occasion and I'm once again feeling completely fucked off, sad and alone. I hope I am wrong. I hope and pray with every ounce of my being that I am wrong. All I can do is pray. And hope that I am right about this one.
To be continued...